How to pray for myself

After I came back from the Manila conference, I have got a flu and also got my back twisted badly. One night, it took me one hour to get out of the bed. Any kind of pain will help me to be more grateful of what I have right now.

Tonight, I was asked to share 10 minutes in the mom’s night house church. The topic is about “How to pray for myself?”.
Here is the content of my sharing , would love to share with you :
Who is your prayer hero?
My prayer heroes are:
The first hero is Hannah 1 Samuel 1 and 2
Hannah was so bitter about herself of not being able to have child. V.15 She poured out her soul to the Lord. V. 18 After she prayed , she went her way and her face was no longer downcast. She promised God that she will give her son to God. After the baby was born, she waited for 3 years to fulfill her commitment to God. For sure , during these few years she struggled a lot. However she chose to surrender and praise God with an amazing prayer (chapter 2) .V1 My heart rejoices in the Lord for I delight in your deliverance.
The second hero is Mary Luke 1:29-55
Mary was greatly troubled at the angel’s words telling her that she will give birth to a son. However she answered, “I am the Lord’s servant, may it be to me as you have said.”
The third hero is Jesus Matt 26:39-42 Die on the cross
Jesus’ soul was overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death . However he still said “ If it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done”.
What I have learnt from these heroes about prayer is that prayer is about walking with God but not about asking for things:
- through prayer we communicate or pour out our heart to God
- through prayer we hand our struggles, weakness……to God
- through prayer we surrender ourselves before God and choose God’s way instead of ours .
My son Michael is our brother, recently he stops going to church. He does not have any spiritual peers walking with him. I feel troubled . I don’t know what I should do. I remember these 3 heroes and try to imitate their hearts. Just as Joshua 3:5 said” Consecrate yourselves, for tomorrow the Lord will do amazing things among you.”
Purify my heart? i.e. want to use my own way, want to be in control, upset with him, impatient with him……..
Surrender ? give it to God and trust that he is in control.
God gives the peace after I am willing to learn from these heroes, Amen!